Death Portal – Mystic Illumination Tarot
You’ve got me in your sights.
I lie face to face with the mystery of the unknown.
the life I knew before
is behind me,
what lies ahead is yet to come.
I, once the mighty hunter of time,
have realized too late that I now am the hunted;
snared by lifetimes of dying, moment by moment.
There. That moment has died.
And that moment
And that one
How do I allow myself to be led,
into the darkness?
Into the mystery?
How do I lie here in surrender,
awaiting direction or guidance?
Dark Knight of my soul,
I beckon thee,
come to my aid!
There once was a time when I frolicked and played,
jumping joyfully over the child gates of safety.
Now I’ve erected ironclad locks in places I had not realized
and I must ponder,
which gates keep me safe
and which ones hold me captive?
Which ones bring safety and which ones bring certain death?
Life review, show me if you dare,
my regrets are many
and my time here, too short.
Look with discerning eyes
into the darkest crevices of my existence
and reveal to me what wants to be illuminated.
As the bell tolls, sounding each name of innocence lost
and yet another dream that has died,
I hold in my heart the seeds of love left unlived.
My tears, evidence of my grief and loss,
are commanded to provide nourishment
in gratitude for life once lived
and new hope for life yet to be.
With purpose and clarity,
I plant feverishly in the dark womb of the earth,
leaving seeds of love in my wake,
knowing my heart will leave an indelible pattern,
of lasting beauty on everything I’ve touched.
And as I slip unceremoniously into the mystery,
Tiny bits of me live on,
If this card has found its way to you, it’s a signal of endings and new beginnings. It’s a moment of quiet reflection and surrender.
Everyone has a dark night of the soul, and yet as a society, we are afraid of the dark. This archetype offers an opportunity to simply “let it be.” Sometimes there is a gift in not knowing what is to come. This is such a moment. For in letting go of expected outcomes we are welcoming something new. As the sun is sure to rise in the morning to announce a new day, the death portal archetype announces a dawn in psyche.
In this moment of quiet reflection it may help to ask yourself how you are choosing to live. What barriers might have been erected that keep you from fully experiencing life? Also, what type of legacy do you want to leave?
This is an opportunity often not fully recognized. It’s an opportunity to die before you die! It’s a chance for a do-over! Each moment offers a gift of new beginnings. Don’t waste it. How do you, in your heart of hearts, want to live this moment?
If this card has shown up in your reading, the following questions may be helpful:
What unlived dreams do I need to mourn, which ones are ready for a new life?
Which dark places in my soul are ready to be seen/illuminated?
In this moment, if I were to see the movie of my life review, what might I see? What do I want it to be?
How can I be the Knight, entering the darkest corners in my soul?
In this moment, how am I choosing to live?
What ‘seeds’ do I want to sow?
What do I need to let go?